My Brain on Autopilot
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“Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.”
I’m sorry I disappointed you. Thank you for not yelling though.
When life gets tough, go to sleep.
I’m taking things harder than I should. But, I’m lost. My rock just kind of up and left. I mean, under the circumstances it was bound to happen but they just left. I made some mistakes, I did things I’m not proud of. I called you my moral compass. You make me want to be a good person. Your presence was once I just always had to be around. Where one was, the other was sure to be right there too. You always gave me something to do, we had plans, I’d make them or you would just invite me over.
I can’t help but feel like I took the entire situation for granted. But I know you have responsibilities and need time to cope, deal, learn from this.
I just miss you.
I want you to be okay.
I want to be okay with and without you. But I don’t want to lose you.
Who said life was easy?
Sometimes it’s not just the words and actions that count. It’s the ability to just be there for someone, no questions asked, no pressure to answer; you’re just there. You just have to let them know.
You can’t live in the past. But you can hope for better in the future. Here’s to a new year.
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If I could go back to 4 years ago I would have tried harder to do what I wanted, and not what I was told to do by my mom.
There’s always going to be resentment because I’ve never really gotten what I wanted.
